完了,一年零两个月又八天的感情完了.
我以为这一天的到来会让我整个人轻松下来,原来我错了.
心是寂寞的,就像心被掏空.一个没有感觉,没有灵魂的驱壳.
一整天在办公室里像游魂似的,做什么事情都不对,每做的文件都出错.

他知道这一切吗?不会,因为我不会告诉他.
虽然我想他知道.

He said:"You should enjoy your life in this age,just do what you like as long as don't make your own life mess."

Time to write down my feeling at here.Really have no idea the life that I'm living now is right or wrong. Is this the life that I want? I know nobody can answer except myself, but I wish someone can give me the answer. Most of them said I should live in a better life, no in this way. I know..I'm really know...but something is not under my control, I can't control on something..what else I can do?? May be I'm afraid to face the truth,I think it's time,just gimme some times to prepare...please...Time is passing,I'm getting elder....haiz..

Work work work...Spend half day to stay in office. Go back home and sleep, wake up in the morning and go to work, keep repeating the same thing in my life. Friend????Everyone is busy with their work. No time for other stuffs dy..but at least the salary i get ,I feel worth. If can naik gaji, then best lar..haha...I know it's impossible...

Holly shit!!!the feeling is coming back!!! I thought I would not have this kind of feeling anymore...gosh...!!

She told me:"The more you scarify doesn't mean you will get the same value of reward." well, I did not mean to get any reward toward effort that i put on. I know there is still a long way for me to learn. Don't know this decision is right or not, I know they are shocked and "beh song" to see my face at that place, but what to do...I am just follow instruction. I just want to work in a peaceful environment, do my part and get my salary, I don't like politics...I hate politics!! Hope times will prove it, to prove that I did not mean to fight with them for power, or anything...

Yamcha+ed with them in the EARLY morning 3am. They said I was not that talkative as before. Am I changed? No, the environment that I'm living now makes me become a quiet person. I don't like to talk, don't like to explain ( because of lazy). Sometimes feel that even I explain so much is useless because the more I explain the more worst of the consequence,so better I shut my mouth up.

the first time I feel to copy this to my blog:

I remember what you wore on the first day
you came into my life and I thought hey
you know this could be something

cause everything you do and words you say
you know that it all takes my breath away
and now I'm left with nothing

so maybe it's true
that I can't live without you
well maybe two is better than one
there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life
and you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two,
is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
you make it hard for breathing

and may be it's true
that I can't live without you
well maybe two is better than one
there's so much time,
to figure out the rest of my life
and you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two,
is better than one

new year

The last day of my 2009 was quite fun, we went to Jogoya to have a 2 hours lunch, shopped at Sungai Wang, drinking nice wines at Laundry while watching the fireworks.

Such a long time I did not have a enjoyable lunch after I entered working life. Never been in this relax mood to take lunch slowly,chit chat and enjoy the delicious foods,desserts,ice-creams...

Such a long time I did not sit down and enjoy the nice wines. We drank 3 bottles of wines and beers, such a crazy night but I was really had fun, thanks to her to bring me there.

A brand new year, I was watching the fireworks,it's really nice ,beautiful. Hope all the bad lucks will gone and the good luck may come in this new year---2010.Made a wish while the fireworks are played. I know it's not logic and people might think I am childish but if this can make my wish comes true, I don't mind to be a childish girl,hehe...