Move

Don't know what's going on to me, it's come into my mind suddenly--working holiday! I know they are totally disagree with me, but this idea really interesting. I can leave this place, start a new life at out there, meet more people, view more interesting stuff, quite fun! but who is willing to follow me? I guess no one. May be I am escaping from something that cause me wants to leave this country so much. Am I? I have really no idea, lost my direction and no one can guide me. even there is someone guide me, give me alot of advices but it's useless...because my heart is missing far far away, it had been missing for few months dy..I know life still go on, but with a heartless mandy.

I'm totally fed up, being a normal staff in company, people might thinking I'm lucky coz doing easy job with a high salary, but this is not what I want!! I went up there is for learning purpose, not for fun, just wasting my time!! I guess no point to staying at here.

People would not think why he or she will behave in this way. For me, every action,decision made sure there is their own reason, we have to find it out and try to understand it. But that is the thing most of the people fail to do it. They just know to blame on them,saying that they should not behave in this way, it is totally wrong... Nothing i can do, this is the last..People thought what I say is joking, not serious.What I can tell you is he is totally wrong..

Nice to meet you, thanks for the all...

9-11-09

I’m getting lazy to work!!! If I can just enjoy my life by hanging around with friends, enjoy with them without work, but all these are imagination, guess I’m just dreaming, haha…
I’ve been stayed at here for 3 weeks but still can’t get used to it. The weather is freaking cold, I hate cold weather!!Don’t understand why I will choose this place. I’ve no choice, it’s all about money. Well, guess that’s LIFE. Sometimes we have to scarify something to get what we want, even thought we dislike it but we still have to do it.
Sorry to them because I’m lie to them for a period of time. I don’t know how to let them know because they are my beloved and I don’t want to hurt them.

Why can't you understand? It's not simple as ABC. It's involved the one I loved, the one who I live for 22 years. You've changed, not the same person that I knew a year ago. People keep advice me to leave you but I don't. It's not because I'm stupid, it's because I think human is deserve for the second chance. But I think I have give you more than that but you don't even realize it. So I'll take consideration.

I am starting to escape again..this time i am not escaping from him,but is them. They are horrible, smile in front of you but can be the one who backstage you. What should I do? I just can do nothing and act stupid, do my part,that's all.