3 days to go, to leave. Gonna to start a new page in my life.
new page? a brand new page or I am just cheating myself? I escape all those stuff that I don't want to face and just pretend I have solve the problems. Ha ha..may be I can get the best actress award.

I'm tired of this life!! tired of my job!! it's all about work, work and work!!!
Life is empty. Althoug I'm laughing when I was with them, but my heart is bleeding.
Sucking job, sucking pay. work load is getting heavier but the payment is remain,suck!!
Stay is to gain more experience??!! but without a reasonable pay I am unable stand anymore.

他跟我说:"做人有向前看,即使有遗憾也要懂得醒."
我真的可以放下他吗?相信每一个人一定会说:"一定可以,只要你下定决心."哈哈...问题是我还不想放下.

He:" Actually what's playing in your mind?"
She:" Can I keep quiet? I don't want to speak it out."

28.02-01.03.2010

Cameron Highland Trip:
Went up the hill with a bunch of friends. The first time I laughed from beginning till the end, it's really happy. Felt relax on the whole trip, no burden, just set my mind free and enjoy every single moment with them.

Sing K

22/02/2010- I hang out with them for dinner and sing k. We laughed, had a lot of fun. It's is a simple dinner and gathering with them, but I am really feel happy.
Haha...nice to meet Winnie The Pooh, "Yong Kit". ^^

Girls outing

Such a long time didn't hang out with them. It's only us, 3 girls outing. Really had a great time with them. We went to sing k for the whole day, and continue our day to Cheras , taken dinner with KL view. It's great to have this kind of date. I'm mean no boy friend is allowed to join us, only girls, easy for us to have girl's talk,hehe...so that we can talk bad about them..

They're planning for Cameron trip on next week, hope everything can go smoothy so that I can join them to have fun.

Times fly...it's really damn fast!! Holiday is going to end, tomorrow gonna start working. Kind of lazy and feel to make a call to extend my holiday. But it's impossible because I'm back to Petaling Jaya, some more there is no reason anymore for me to stay longer at my hometown.

Well, my Chinese new year quite fun and happy. This Chinese new year was totally different compare to the previous 22 years of Chinese new year that I had celebrated. There are few reason that why I say so. Firstly, I met a group of friends which are very funny and friendly. It's really nice to meet them,even thought I just met them for twice. Hope the next Chinese new year can meet them again. We watched fireworks at Menglembu.Really have a great day with them.

Secondly, I hang out with them at night. It was my first time hang out until late night at Ipoh. Thanks for bringing me out. Have a lot of fun with you guys...

Thirdly, guess you will not contact me anymore. I don't know how to tell you, but sometimes I didn't say doesn't mean I don't know. Sorry for I don't know how to express my feeling towards you, I know I'm an idiot.

完了,一年零两个月又八天的感情完了.
我以为这一天的到来会让我整个人轻松下来,原来我错了.
心是寂寞的,就像心被掏空.一个没有感觉,没有灵魂的驱壳.
一整天在办公室里像游魂似的,做什么事情都不对,每做的文件都出错.

他知道这一切吗?不会,因为我不会告诉他.
虽然我想他知道.

He said:"You should enjoy your life in this age,just do what you like as long as don't make your own life mess."

Time to write down my feeling at here.Really have no idea the life that I'm living now is right or wrong. Is this the life that I want? I know nobody can answer except myself, but I wish someone can give me the answer. Most of them said I should live in a better life, no in this way. I know..I'm really know...but something is not under my control, I can't control on something..what else I can do?? May be I'm afraid to face the truth,I think it's time,just gimme some times to prepare...please...Time is passing,I'm getting elder....haiz..

Work work work...Spend half day to stay in office. Go back home and sleep, wake up in the morning and go to work, keep repeating the same thing in my life. Friend????Everyone is busy with their work. No time for other stuffs dy..but at least the salary i get ,I feel worth. If can naik gaji, then best lar..haha...I know it's impossible...

Holly shit!!!the feeling is coming back!!! I thought I would not have this kind of feeling anymore...gosh...!!

She told me:"The more you scarify doesn't mean you will get the same value of reward." well, I did not mean to get any reward toward effort that i put on. I know there is still a long way for me to learn. Don't know this decision is right or not, I know they are shocked and "beh song" to see my face at that place, but what to do...I am just follow instruction. I just want to work in a peaceful environment, do my part and get my salary, I don't like politics...I hate politics!! Hope times will prove it, to prove that I did not mean to fight with them for power, or anything...

Yamcha+ed with them in the EARLY morning 3am. They said I was not that talkative as before. Am I changed? No, the environment that I'm living now makes me become a quiet person. I don't like to talk, don't like to explain ( because of lazy). Sometimes feel that even I explain so much is useless because the more I explain the more worst of the consequence,so better I shut my mouth up.

the first time I feel to copy this to my blog:

I remember what you wore on the first day
you came into my life and I thought hey
you know this could be something

cause everything you do and words you say
you know that it all takes my breath away
and now I'm left with nothing

so maybe it's true
that I can't live without you
well maybe two is better than one
there's so much time
to figure out the rest of my life
and you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two,
is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
you make it hard for breathing

and may be it's true
that I can't live without you
well maybe two is better than one
there's so much time,
to figure out the rest of my life
and you've already got me coming undone
and I'm thinking two,
is better than one

new year

The last day of my 2009 was quite fun, we went to Jogoya to have a 2 hours lunch, shopped at Sungai Wang, drinking nice wines at Laundry while watching the fireworks.

Such a long time I did not have a enjoyable lunch after I entered working life. Never been in this relax mood to take lunch slowly,chit chat and enjoy the delicious foods,desserts,ice-creams...

Such a long time I did not sit down and enjoy the nice wines. We drank 3 bottles of wines and beers, such a crazy night but I was really had fun, thanks to her to bring me there.

A brand new year, I was watching the fireworks,it's really nice ,beautiful. Hope all the bad lucks will gone and the good luck may come in this new year---2010.Made a wish while the fireworks are played. I know it's not logic and people might think I am childish but if this can make my wish comes true, I don't mind to be a childish girl,hehe...